Claire's SCI Blog

the steps of DOOOOOOM

December 14th, 2009

So today I had a small meltdown in the physio room. Jason is my physiotherapist and he doesn’t speak much english, and he’s been trying to get me to do these steps in the physio room without holding onto anything. And I try! I have been faced with these steps every physio session so far, but I just CAN’T do them without holding on to anything. Andy tried to get me to do them last time aswell, with the same result. And I get that I have to try, so I do, but seriously. I can’t do it. Or at least I can’t do it without flinging myself over the room and breaking my head. So I think I must have been slightly scarred from this exercise last time, and have (embarrassingly) been on the verge of tears each time I try and do it this time. So today I just couldn’t do it, Jason was like “come on, come on” and I was like “I can’t!” and then I cried and felt really stupid and crap because there’s all these little kids who are blind, or have severe cerebral palsy, so what the hell am I upset about? Oh so emooooooooo.

And now I’m hungry. oh when will it end!?!?!

PS first lumbar on wed :S

PPS also first IV valium for the lumbar on wed, mmmmmmmmmm… valiuuuuummmmm….. (there have to be some perks)

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